Amylia Ennalyna

AM I ?.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

OH,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, WAWAN (:

I'M BAFFLED, REALLY BAFFLED. SEE, THE SITUATION'S COMPLEX. HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE, YOUR WORLD'S GETTING REALLY MUNDANE, YOU FEEL AS THOUGH LIFE IS OBVIOUSLY JUST A CYCLE OF ROUTINE ? IT'S NOT THAT, I WANT THRILLS IN MY LIFE. THRILLS ARE FUN, BUT AT TIMES, THRILLS ARE UNPREDICTABLE&IT ANTAGONIZES ME. I'M RATHER UNCERTAIN ON HOW TO EXPRESS MY EMOTIONS THROUGH WORDS, NO WAIT, IT'S NOT THAT. I'M PRETTY AFFIRMATIVE THAT MY VOCAB IS RATHER WIDE ENOUGH, IT'S JUST... THIS FEELING THAT I CAN'T REALLY EXPLAIN IN JUST 3-4 STANZAS OR PARAGRAPH OR EVEN MORE. LET'S JUST SAY, LIFE'S LIKE A DEAD TURTLE LYING BY THE ROAD MOTIONLESS. SEE, LIFE'S BEEN BORING THROUGH MY SOUL. YES, BORING THROUGH MY SOUL. I'VE BEEN ABHORRING THE DRONING OF TEACHERS, THAT'S NOT LIKE ME. I LOVE STUDYING !(define me weird, but i guess it's true) I KNOW, I'VE BEEN SLACKING ALOT LATELY, AS IN, IN STUDIES. I DON'T GET IT, IT'S THE SECOND PHASE OF THIS SITUATION, I'VE JACKED THIS FEELING ONCE IN THE EARLY PERIOD OF THE YEAR. I ABHORRED IT, AND NOW IT'S BACK. AM I SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION OR SOMETHING ? LOL, WHUAAAAT ? CAN'T A GIRL BE EXTRA CAUTIOUS WITH HER EMOTIONS ? BUT NAH, IT'LL NEVER HAPPEN. I ALWAYS JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS, WHICH IS BAD. HA! I SERIOUSLY THINK MY FEELINGS FOR AZECK HAS FADED, I MEAN, I DON'T FEEL THE "TINGLY-NESS" NO MORE. I FEEL SO, DREADFUL TO TALK TO HIM THESE DAYS. IT'S EITHER MY FEELINGS HAVE FADED OR IT HAS JUST MANOEUVRED TO ANOTHER. OR ! I'M JUST REALLY EMOTIONALLY JUMBLED UP, I'M IMPLICATING MY LOVE LIFE. LOL, I GUESS IT'S JUST THAT, YEAH, I HOPE SO.