Amylia Ennalyna

trust me..

Monday, November 16, 2009

I don't wish to have dinner. Blargh, the food, not to my preference. I was online on fb a few minutes earlier on. Ignored Ah Feeq Small Pai Kia when he accosted me on FB (Y)(Y)I think I'm like having mood swing or sth. On a lighter note, Syafiq stays in 3C ! Yessa, masih dengan aku, sayang kau, G.B.

I enquired my mum earlier on, whether trust is ever attainable once it's bantered&whether she trust me. I wasn't surprised when she replied that she never trusted me since the day I was born cause she never believed in trusting your kids. Furthermore, she continued that trust was never achievable once you misuse a person's trust on you. The amusing part was when she said that she used to be a flirtatious person when she was my age&relationship wasn't her forte until she met my dad. I was like, WTF THIS IS GROSS ! WHY IS SHE TELLING ME ABOUT HER LOVE LIFE SIAAAAA ! Till eventually, she added, I know more about your teenage life than you think I do. All I replied was, "Firm tak firm ni, ma ?" &she frigging said, "You're just like me when I was younger, only much more boisterous, &your teenage puppy love life is cocked up, I know"

It's not everyday where I get to see&experience my mum being so open-minded, soooo, mm, broad-minded about a teenager's life. I mean like, hello, what do parents know about us ? Haha ! So I guess, I put my hopes up too high. But hey, it's hard to not get our hopes high cause hopes are hard to beat in the first place. Eventually, I told myself to just concentrate on my studies next year&consider a time-out for r/s. Mm-hmm, I trust MYSELF&I don't need nobody else's trust, that I'll totally buck up for next year's academy's that's awaiting for me. Honestly, I just can't trust guys no more, except one. Too bad, for THAT guy... I don't think he could even trust me anymore. Ahhh, forget it, you get what you deserve now zip it. Haha !